Puppy Blog #1

So I just got a dog, yayy. And already I’m having mixed feelings. I love her, she’s by far the easiest animal I’ve had so far. Honestly I don’t know what the mixed feelings are about. Maybe a little self-doubt because everyone reminds me that I haven’t had the best history with animals. I usually return them within a week. Honestly Whiskey (her name) feels different. I’m thinking of ways to be a good mommy to her. But what if she’s too much for me? What if I get annoyed? What if I start getting those familiar feelings of wanting to return her. She really is so precious. It’s just the responsibility of taking care of something other than myself. Which I always think I’m ready for but I end up having doubts about. I’ve always been a selfish person and sometimes with dogs I don’t feel the connection. They can be looking at you with the sweetest expression and sometimes I just feel empty. And I don’t want that energy to transfer to her off of me. Just how I feel. Yet it terrified me when I thought she might not be breathing. I’m sleeping on my couch just in case she needs me in the middle of the night.