The Felon MAGA Follows

I have goals. Almost completely impossible ones—the kind that demand everything from me. Time, energy, sacrifice, relentless effort. But lately, I’ve been asking myself: what’s the point?

I live in a country where college security guards are being trained like ICE agents—because the students are considered the threat. Meanwhile, the man pulling the strings has been convicted of 34 felonies.

Thirty-four.

So why shouldn’t I just rob a bank? Why am I out here trying to do the right thing when it’s clear that doing the wrong thing gets you further? Trump has made openly racist, sexist, and vile comments. He’s told the world to “grab women by the p*y.” He stripped away DEI initiatives, which were created to address the very real biases marginalized people face on campuses and in the workplace. In one move, he made it even harder for people who don’t look like him to get anywhere in life.

He’s been connected to the Epstein files. You know, the ones tied to child trafficking on a private island—but nobody seems to care. He’s been impeached—twice. He’s been accused of rigging elections. And still… people vote for him.

At this point, I have to ask: Are y’all brainwashed? Part of a cult? Or just straight-up evil?

And the biggest joke? He still talks about immigrants like they’re the problem.

We’re all from somewhere else. Unless you’re Native American, you’re standing on stolen land. So who’s the real threat?

Let me be clear: There is nothing more dangerous in this country than a bored, powerful, entitled white man who feels humiliated. History proves it. From mass shootings to economic crashes to unjust wars—the pattern is there if you’re willing to look. But people don’t want to. They’d rather wear red hats and call it patriotism.

Where’s your humanity? Your empathy?

More of us have died peacefully protesting than you have for storming government buildings.

And yet you still think you’re on the right side of history?

Make. It. Make. Sense.

Think about what this world will look like for the generation after us. Your sons, daughters, nieces, nephews—do you really want them to grow up in the rubble of one man’s ego?

Or maybe, we really are too far gone.

Journal Entry #13

I haven’t been blogging as much. I’ve been busy with school and life. I’m going through a situation right now that I shouldn’t have to be stressing about and being accused of something I didn’t do. Now it’s not as extreme as I’m making it out to be but it’s a pretty dramatic situation.

My dad kicked me out.

He kicked me out because he disrespected my cousin and when she had the voice to speak up for herself he called her disrespectful. He’s been getting away with bullying us for far too long and I was proud to call her my cousin at that moment.

He kicked her out first and she was just so quick with her responses. Everything he said she matched. Once she left he turned his attention on me. My dad has a misogynistic mentality so he doesn’t believe WOMEN should ever fix their mouth to talk to him like that. And if any men ever read this and thought the same thing let me be the first to say FUCK YOU you insecure little bitch.

Anyways once attention was focused on me he asked me why I let her talk to him that way. HUH? I didn’t LET her do anything. I can’t control another woman’s mouth. Shit I agree with her. But I didn’t say that out of respect for him.

In retaliation, he tried to, in his words, “confiscate my bottle” that I paid for. I bought the bottle for the house and keep in mind my dad is a stingy man who never shares his. Normally I wouldn’t buy a bottle big enough for everyone but I was feeling generous. But once he tried to take my possessions I immediately intervened by telling him no. He didn’t like it one bit and kicked me out and told me I couldn’t come back until I apologized. For what? Not letting you run over me? I didn’t even disrespect him. If anyone deserves an apology it’s me.

He shot me a text today saying he couldn’t allow chaos in his house and that when I’m ready we need to talk. Like hold on, why are you still trying to little girl me? I get I’m your child but that doesn’t mean I’m not deserving of respect for the woman that I am. It felt like a condescending, lukewarm apology without him taking any accountability.

On top of that, my job has still managed to overlap scheduling with the man who violated my privacy. After telling me it was my fault that he did so.

Surrounded by a world full of toxic men, but women will always persevere. I will not let them silence and demean me. I will persevere and make them all suffer.

Journal of Raw Thoughts

Ignorance is bliss, but knowledge is power.

I guess it all depends on your perspective — and what you choose. Happiness, or power.

For example, I want to know the truth behind religion.

I want to know the one true God — whoever that really is — and I’m starting to wonder if it’s even the God humans talk about. Maybe a lesser god, a “sub-God,” created us, through the spiritual branches of government and creation.

I came upon this thought while talking to ChatGPT.

The evolution of technology is extraordinary. I can type something in, and almost instantly, I get a response. It’s amazing. But then I started thinking — whose responses are these really? Someone had to write the code that made AI what it is. Someone gave it its thoughts and processes. It’s a machine, but humans are trying to make it sentient.

In a way, the founders are like gods to AI.

And if that’s true, maybe God is testing us the same way we’re testing technology.

What’s the end goal here? World peace? Control? Something bigger?

While searching for the truth, I find myself wondering — is it even worth knowing?

What would knowing do for me?

We are probably a creation, from a creation, from a creation.

I started this journey because I wanted to find the one true God.

But what if God doesn’t care about us?

What if there is no saving?

What if the truth is so hidden, so layered, that it’s impossible to ever fully understand?

It has me questioning everything.

I don’t know what’s real.

I don’t know if I’m on the right track.

And I don’t even know what this new knowledge would mean for my life.

Religion keeps so many people locked into a system. Maybe that’s the point — maybe it’s a test.

But when you start thinking outside of it… it gets scary.

I honestly don’t know if the truth is worth chasing.

Maybe ignorance is bliss after all.

I’m not a Satanist, but for those who are — what if they’re just adapting?

It’s an evil world we live in.

Maybe they’re just surviving in a system that’s stacked against us all.

I know we’re not supposed to cling to earthly things.

But Satan makes himself findable.

God, meanwhile, feels hidden.

And honestly? I’m going to need God to fight back.

People believe what’s in front of their eyes. We’re simple creatures. We need guidance.

But hiding while we cry out for answers doesn’t feel like guidance — it feels like abandonment.

And when we pray… who’s really answering?